Friday, January 16, 2009

I'm addicted...

I have an addiction...

There I said it, I'm addicted. I'm addicted to comparing myself to other people.

I'm always comparing myself to my friends. I'm not as athletic as my friend Jon. I'm not as smart as my friend Tom. I'm not as charismatic as Luke. I don't see the world like Paulo. Its a constant addiction, and I need to get over it.

I need to get over it because I'm not Jon, Tom, Luke, or Paulo; I'm Dan. I'm my own person. If I constantly cut myself down because I'm not those people then I'll never be me. I will stunt my potential because I'm not them.

You see my problem is that I want life to be fair. To me my issues result in the fact that its not fair that Jon is bigger and stronger than I am, that Tom is way smarter than me, that Luke's personality is 100 times more explosive and exciting than mine, or that Paulo has experience all over the globe. I somehow reason that if life were fair, somehow my problems would go away. You see I'm blaming my problems on situations, and my hope is in some way the leveling of the playing field; not where it should be, with God.

Like I said, I'm addicted, but I don't have to let that define me. After all, I'm Dan.

3 comments:

dan said...

after re-reading some may think that this is a shallow attempt to fish for a compliment. its not. BUT if you wish to tell me that I'm a good guy...feel welcome

stephendcady said...

You are a legend in at least in one region of the US... also, have you ever wondered how this colors your understanding of justice?

also, I think I'm gonna start blogging again (in a new place), mainly on issues of faith and justice. I'll let you know when I get rolling.

I do appreciate you, truly.

dan said...

thanks Steve-o!

keep me up-to-date on the launching of the greatest blog of all time! I'll definitely closely follow it!